An Autism Journey


“Motherhood is about raising and celebrating the child you have, not the child you thought you’d have. It’s about understanding he is exactly the person he is supposed to be. And, if you’re lucky, he might be the teacher who turns you into the person you’re supposed to be.”

~The Water Giver

Unconditional Sibling Love

I’ve found it very difficult to protect my heart when it’s beating outside of my body. These days it’s running around in the form of little sandy-haired, blue-eyed kids, in such vulnerable form.   I’ve wanted to protect these two from the Big Bad World since the moment I met them. Most of the time, … Continue reading

E I G H T

Joy.  I want to get it right, explaining this birthday boy to you, and joy is what comes to mind over and over again. Sometimes fragile but mostly fearless, he’s going to discover, celebrate, and remember every little thing about this big old world. He finds the joy around him all the time… a spontaneous … Continue reading

autism & changing the world

When autism entered my life, I knew nothing about it. Books and the internet provided some information but at times they were also terrifying rabbit-holes to nowhere. No one was talking about autism. Because of this, I think the road to acceptance for many parents with special kids is very lonely and isolating. It did … Continue reading

growth, change, & autism

One clear memory from Wilson’s autism diagnosis evaluation has stuck with me. We sat in a stark room with no windows. The psychiatrist had brought out one activity at a time, then locked them up in a cupboard once they were done.  I vaguely remember a baby, and a pretend birthday cake, and so many … Continue reading

scripting & communication

“Wow, there sure are a lot of letters! Each makes a special sound.” ✨ This is scripting (reciting learned words and phrases from movies, books, shows, etc) from a favorite Leap Frog Letter Factory show. Scripting was one of Wilson’s first vehicles for verbal communication and he often still uses learned phrases to communicate today. … Continue reading

For Wilson’s Tribe

While motherhood has certainly been my greatest adventure, the vulnerability in becoming a mom, and the mother of an autistic child, has been a substantial challenge for me. I found myself, for the first time in a long time, in need of help.  A lot of it. This has never been something I’ll easily admit, … Continue reading

your words matter.

I don’t think there is a mom out there that hasn’t been kicked in the ass by motherhood a time or two. Years ago, when Wilson was a nonverbal toddler and Charlie an infant, I attempted to take them both to Target.  This was pre-autism diagnosis, and I really struggled to understand and communicate with … Continue reading

remember my boy

Explaining autism is hard.  Understanding the complexities inside of my sweet boy can feel like trying to catch and examine the wind. If there is one piece of autism awareness I can leave you with this month, this would be it: The next time you are stuck at the grocery store, irritated with the man … Continue reading

autism: the beginning

“STOP FOLLOWING US, BABY! Why doesn’t he talk? He’s a BIG BABY! AHHH!!! Run!!”  I watched as the two older boys screamed these words into my son’s face at the otherwise-empty playground.  They couldn’t understand why a kid my son’s size wouldn’t talk or pick up the clue that they didn’t want him around, even … Continue reading

a little advocate

This is Charlie. When her big brother, who is seven years old and autistic, lost his first tooth, she asked us to write a letter to the tooth fairy because she knew her brother would love a toy more than money.  She made sure to check his pillow the next morning and show him what … Continue reading

Always Presume Competence

-Nonspeaking does not mean a person cannot communicate, understand you, or that they don’t have feelings. -Please drop labels like high/low functioning. Would you want to be talked about that way? Instead, you can say, “Tell me more about your child.” – If a person is not making eye contact, or moving their body in … Continue reading

this boy ✨

“I spent a lot of time trying to untangle all the contradictions inside of this sweet boy, like it had to be one way or another. It doesn’t. He is not something to be untangled or fixed, just understood, supported, and included.

This blue-eyed boy finds JOY everywhere, and the best part is, he helps others see it too. I hope you get the chance to know him, or someone as uniquely wonderful.”
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autism & awareness

Oh April, Autism Awareness Month. I have mixed feelings about you. You see, I am never unaware of autism. When I answer the same questions 1,980,674 a day from my little boy with autism, it’s impossible to be unaware. Or when I help him go over his schedule 630,238 times a day. My husband looks … Continue reading

the weight of hope & autism

“Will Wilson still have autism when he’s all grown up?”  My little girl asked, continually curious and looking out for her big brother. “Yes, he will,” I told her with a smile. <enter her look of pure shock> “But! How will get married? His girlfriend won’t understand him!” Sometimes these conversations are hard.   They … Continue reading


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